Thursday, July 30, 2009

LOVE

It doesn't matter anymore either he loves me
Because he never loves me anyway
It never been from the very beginning

No matter how hard you try and scream up to your lung
It is still not going to be there
Love can never be forced
It will never happen

Love is by the heart
Not by the brain

True love will never fades away
True love comes from within you
It touches your deepest core..
...soul
...emotions
...spirit
...heart
and it is unbearable by brain to decide.

If anything happen to your true love
it will make you CRY
it is impossible to fake it what you trully feel


Feeling All Blue Today

Just had my dinner (alone) today. Trying to uplift myself a little by getting online.

A couple minutes later, at the cafe I'm chilling right now playing this song
by Joe Cocker - 'Up Where We Belong'. Felt like he's singing it for me.

YES,
love lift us up where we belong!
(Although sometimes I dunno where or who am I belong to ..gloomy***).


Anyhow, the below lyrics is belong to the song...feel it with your soul.

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Who knows what tomorrow brings
In a world few hearts survive?
All I know is the way I feel.
When it's real, I keep it alive.
The road is long, there are mountains in our way,
But we climb a step every day.

Love lift us up where we belong,
Where the eagles cry
On a mountain high.
Love lift us up where we belong,
Far from the world below,
Up where the clear winds blow.

Some hang on to "used to be,"
Live their lives looking behind.
All we have is here and now,
All our life, out there to find.
The road is long, there are mountains in our way,
But we climb a step every day

Love lift us up where we belong,
Where the eagles cry
On a mountain high.
Love lift us up where we belong,
Far from the world we know,
Where the clear winds blow.

Time goes by, no time to cry,
Life's you and I. A life today.

Love lift us up where we belong,
Where the eagles cry
On a mountain high.
Love lift us up where we belong,
Far from the world we know,
Where the clear winds blow.
Love lift us up where we belong,
Where the eagles cry
On a mountain high.




Who is Loving Me ?

When I had you
I treated you bad and wrong my dear
And since, since you been gone

Don't you know I sit around
With my head hanging down
And I wonder who's lovin' you

I should have never, ever
ever made you cry
And and girl since yer since you been gone

Life with out love, huh...
It's oh so lonely
I don't think, I don't think! I'm gonna make it

All my life, all my life baby yeah I've been lost to you only
Come on & take it girl
Come on & take it, because....
All, all I can do, all I can do since you've been gone is cry
And don't you ever wonder or worry your head of what i do

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

For my Junior

I Missed both My Greatest Idol - MJ & Yasmin

28th July 2009

This morning I'm back to my routine life. Coming back to the office after almost a weeks vacation wasn't that hard as I thought.

As usually I will start
my day by checking up my emails. Quite plenty for me to read tho..but among all those, there's an email from hubby about my idol. It simply caught my attention...I really missed MJ.

It doesn't matter how much some people hate him. I have always adore him through out my life. He is totally one of a kind and I love him so much.

Below is what's written in the email...


Michael Jackson


Michael Jackson (MJ) was known as the most loving person in the world. He gave up most of his assets for charity and all his life, he fought for equality of the African Americans, AIDS victims, Against Drug Abuse, Against Abortion, Against Child Labor and secretly channelled his properties for the hungry children of the world. However, he wasn't peace at heart. He always think of himself as a child trapped inside a man's body. Being Peter Pan is all his dream, never to grow up, forever a child. That inspires him to build Neverland - a heaven for children. Children of all ages and races are welcomed to Neverland. MJ had so much love to give.

However, he made a mistake which he didn't know of the consequences. He saw the peaceful life his brother, Jermaine (Muhammad Abdul Aziz) had as a Muslim - true, Jermaine faced so much pressure that he moved to Bahrain .

In 1989, MJ made a press conference which shocked the world, "I have seen the Islam in the life of my brother, I have read the books about Islam. And I'd love to someday feel the calmness and peace of Islam...."

Since that, MJ's life was never the same again.
He was accused of so many accusations against child molestation. MJ was not someone who can deal with much pressure as he is a 'delicate child'. All the extortion and black mail followed after that. Everything he did was being seen as wrong in the eyes of the Media. All these are to influence his fans to hate MJ. If he is hated, then he would not be influencial anymore.

For several years, he stayed in England . Getting motivation from a long time friend, Cat Stevens, who had converted into Islam - named Yusuf Islam. From him, MJ learnt how Yusuf had survived being Muslim. He made friends with a song writer, Zain Bhikha too, who wrote a song titled, "GIVE THANKS TO ALLAH", which he wanted MJ to sing whenever he is ready.

Following his trial, MJ withdrew to Bahrain , where he was the special guest of sheik Abdullah bin Hamad Al Khalifa, the son of Bahrain 's king. It was then that Michael began to give conversion more "serious thought."
MJ stayed in Bahrain for approximately 3 years. He studied Islam, the prayers and learn to read the Koran (al-Quran).

Finally, he came back to Los Angeles and in November 2008 MJ had formally converted to Islam in a ceremony at a close friend's house in Los Angeles .
He perform Haj with the King of Bahrain and son on December 2008.

He had a hidden agenda when he wanted to make a final comeback. He annouced in a press conference on March 2009, "This will be my final concert. I'll see you all in July...."

He planned that during his concert, he would announce that this is the FINAL concert as he wouldn't be performing anymore. He will declare that he is a Muslim and will only sing with Yusuf Islam and Friends.
At the end of the concert, he will be singing the song, "GIVE THANKS TO ALLAH" with Yusuf Islam. That is the reason why he chose London as his final concert venue instead of the USA . It was because he thought he could escape the USA 's extortion, and that he could perform with yusuf Islam who is in England .

At 12.30am, 25th June 2009, he hugged his production manager and said, "After reherasing for 2 months, I am finally ready for the concert..."
Before leaving to sleep, he waved his dancers, "It was a good night everyone. I'll see you all tomorrow..."
The next thing.... He was pronouced dead at 2.26am....

When 911 was called, there are so much questions asked. It is as if they didn't know who MJ is and where he lived. The questions asked are more towards to delay time.
The hospital said the autopsy result can only be obtained after 2 months - very illogical as even the worst African technology could obtain the result in less than 2 weeks.

MJ's family members opt for second private autopsy as they started to feel something fishy is going on. The result came out in about 4 days - MJ was drugged with high dosage of anaesthetic - drug that brings about a reversible loss of consciousness, if used to much could stop the heart from beating.

Another result which was not aired in the media was, MJ's stomach is empty of this drug, but his blood were filled with it - same case as the death of Marilyn Monroe.
The private doctors also found many needle marks, afraid to be forced injections given to MJ on his bed.

In CNN Live after a week, Barack Obama was interviewed. . And he said, "I love MJ, I grew up listening to his songs. It is a great loss, but rest assured that there is no conspiracy in his death..."
Now, why must a President made such statement before the official autopsy result came out? How would he know that there is no conspiracy without the post-mortem result? Seems like someone is afraid of his shadows.

MJ was known to the world as a person who is against drug abuse. Why must he be addicted to drug, then? If he wanted to commit suicide, why rehearse for his concert? And why will he want to see his dancers the next day?

Enough about his death. I am sure people around the world is not ****** anymore. These supreme power can **** us during the Marilyn Monroe conspiracy, Martin Luther King and Princess Diana. But in this MJ's case, they left too many loopholes for those who think...!!

MJ left us with this unfinished studio-recorded song, GIVE THANKS TO ALLAH. You can download this song here: http://www.filefact ory.com/file/ahb80ff/ n/Micheal_ Jackson_- _Give_Thanks_ To_Allah_ mp3

MJ's family was about to give him a Muslim burial with the help of The Brotherhood of Islam. But, the CIA showed up at Neverland's door - blackmailed them that if they do so publicly, Katherine (MJ's mother) would be pull off from MJ's 3 children's custody as well as MJ's estates. Instead, they'll hire Debbie Rowe for the purpose, and the court will be in their favour. So much for democracy and fairness...

Finally, they agreed to let MJ have a Muslim Burial in Neverland. But in condition, must show to the public a Christian Memorial Service, as to prove to the world that MJ was never a Muslim.

So, Staples Centre was just a normal show. That's why the coffin was closed and sealed.

MJ was buried days earlier. The Gold Coffin was empty. They were about to bury the Coffin according to Christianity ways in Hollywood - as in their deal with the USA Government.

These happened, because the USA is afraid of the rising numbers of Muslims in the world.

(Sheikh Ha**d)
The Brotherhood of Islam
Buletin of Bahrain

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Sarawak

Never been there.
Hoping and wishing that I'll be able to be there too...

Sighh...

Friday, July 17, 2009

Today, Junior is in 11 weeks

Week 11: Baby's sex may be apparent

Illustration of embryo nine weeks after conception
Your baby at week 11 (nine weeks after conception)

From now until your 20th week of pregnancy — the halfway mark — your baby will increase his or her weight 30 times and will about triple in length. To make sure your baby gets enough nutrients, the blood vessels in the placenta are growing larger and multiplying.

Your baby is now officially described as a fetus. Your baby's ears are moving up and to the side of the head this week. By the end of the week, your baby's external genitalia will develop into a recognizable penis or clitoris and labia majora.



Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Complete Form of my Sweetie

7 weeks and 5 days Junior.


9 weeks and 1 day Junior.

Week 9: Movement begins

Illustration of embryo seven weeks after conception
Your baby at week nine (seven weeks after conception)

Your baby is now nearly 1 inch long and weighs a bit less than 1/8 of an ounce. The embryonic tail at the bottom of your baby's spinal cord is shrinking, helping him or her look less like a tadpole and more like a developing person.

Your baby's head — which is nearly half the size of his or her entire body — is now tucked down onto the chest. Nipples and hair follicles begin to form. Your baby's pancreas, bile ducts, gallbladder and anus are in place. The internal reproductive organs, such as testes or ovaries, start to develop.

Your baby may begin moving this week, but you won't be able to feel it for quite a while yet.