Saturday, February 21, 2009

Sense of belonging

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He told me to take it easy. I wish that it's easy to accept the fact that it is. But, I'm simply can't afford to ignore it. And 'this' keeps me drowning in my own life.

Some thing is not rite some where. And they've told me about it. Yet, I hardly accept the fact as it is. Deep in me, I struggleto prove them wrong. Prove them all wrong.

Day passes by..and I keep counting the days. It's taking too long.
Maybe it's faith, but when? Dear God, I'm very sorry for all my sins. Oh dear God, I'm trully sorry for my impatient.
On my bended knees, humbly I'm trully sorry for my uncontrollable desire.

I've been trying myself to accept the reality. The surroundings makes me crazy. And I frankly can't avoid of thinking about it. It surely end up of putting me down.

With all my guts, I'm trying to be a better person. Truly being who I am supposed to be. Accepting the faith that where I destined in. Although it hurts. Hurts me like mad.
Dear God, please help me out of this pain.

Yes, take it easy gal. Take it easy.
I wish I could with all I might.
*wishing & praying*

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Friday, February 13, 2009

It's A Lazy Friday

*stretching + yawning*'s friday. I'm so so so blank rite now. There's so much to do at work but the mood is not there. *sigh...

Tomorrow I'm going off to Kluang, Johor. AArghhh..too lazy to travel laaa.
The only thing in mind rite now is just to stay at home. There's so many things to do. No no..being at home for now never bores me. The only thing I longing is my own space and time.

My friend told me that I need a break. A 'nice' holiday. Sounds great..but the truth is, I just wanna stay at home. Get inspired at home. Bring back the energy from home. Yes, that wut I desperately need!

Some people said that being at home is boring. I agree if you totally have nothing to do. Not for me. I have my house cleaning to do, photography work to get inspired, some research on my own thingy to be done and the list goes on. These people can never understand.

I miss Amylea tho..wanted to go and visit her. And see her keep jumping around me..teehee.
She always does that whenever she sees me enter the house door and start screaming happily and start jumping merrily saying "T Ann....T Annn...T Annnnn..." ( means Auntie Ann in her own way of pronouncing it).
Owhh I terribly miss her!!

Thursday, February 12, 2009


my feet is killing me.... = (
Either my feet is growing or my shoe is shrinking. But hey, my feet is 'cute' (i think..hehe) la..

Now I have bruises on my both foot. It's seriously painful. It's swollen and ugly.
Maybe most of my pretty shoes is simply uncomfortable for me to move around alot.

I should get a good and comfortable one.

This one is simply perfect ...

cute + feminine + comfy = me (thehehehe =P )

Her name is Alice.

I'll be very happy if I can own her one day. It will make me feel like 'Alice in the Wonderland'.
Okay okayyy...I'm joking. =P

Sadly, I can't afford it in this nearest time.
Too broke to grab one for now.

p/s : CROCS for me for valentine's?
(dream on..)

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

A Makeover Needed

All this while I always dream to have a very comfy designer layout house.
Furnished with stylish sofas, unique coffee table, huge and solid dinning hall and etc.
My dreams haven't come true.

When I was studying back then I stayed with some other gals which the environment doesn't allow me to do so. Later after that I moved in with my cousin and a fren of mine from work in a one & half story house. The house was pretty nice though, but sadly my hommie is not the type tat appreciate or value nice house. I was always have to be the maid to clean up their mess. Sigh..
Pretty sick with all those, I decided to move to a stylish studio apartment by myself. Love it. I had a good time staying there by myself and having the freedom to deco it up to my likeness.

However, since I got married...I realised a studio apartment is nomore practical for me.
It's too small to fit a family, relatives or wut-so-ever in there.
Therefore, me and hubby decided to move out and get a proper land house.

Finally, here I am.
Just recently moved in to this one beautiful house somewhere in my hometown.
It's really great to have some land and having my own car porch and many many many rooms all by myself. One of the greatest thing about it is....I even have my own workstation a.k.a study room now!!! Ooooo YEAHHHH!!

Yes yes...I'm really happy to have this place. Everything is simply perfect for now.
my house need a makeover!!!
Owhh's of course is not a brand new hse. So the painting is obviously worn out.
The windows seems cracking here and there (which I couldnt do much about it).
So...a serious makeover needed for sure!

Ever since I moved in, my mind been thinking pretty hard of how shud I revamp the house.
Of course this gonna involved us lots and lotsa cash too. So, I have play it smart here.
As long it fits everything (my style + budget) well and I'm all fine.

I always love to have modern, slick and stylish interior deco. My fav color for furniture will be red, black, brown, cream and white. Adding some green plant will be perfect! Simplicity and in-order is my priority.

While browsing around to gather some ideas, I come across this..

Gosh, the color combination fits my taste ideally.

Look at the flooring, very alluring.
( too expensive my hubby said )

And for this pic, the space looks almost like my TV hall.

Oh my.....oh my,
I really looking foward for the make over. Lately, I've been busy window shopping for the furniture. And still deciding what paint color to match it all.

R&D is flowering.

Friday, February 6, 2009

"What Does Love Mean?"

I've been thinking alot lately that what LOVE really means.
It doesn't mean tat I'm coming to 29 yrs old and I trully understand this very universal word of 'love'.
But I know that this weird feeling or emotions kinda exist in me. Too many levels of love in me, which it's kinda hard for me to define.

Anyway, while browsing on the net...I come across this...

What Does Love Mean?

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of four through eight year olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:

"Love is that first feeling you feel before all the bad stuff gets in the way."

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love."

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth."

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your french fries without making them give you any of theirs."

"Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don’t yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings."

"Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired."

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."

"Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."

"When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you’re scared they won’t love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only do they still love you, they love you even more."

"There are two kinds of love: Our love and God’s love. But God makes both kinds of them."

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore."

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."

"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken."

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."

"I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her."

"Love cards like Valentine’s cards say stuff on them that we’d like to say ourselves, but we wouldn’t be caught dead saying."

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you"

"You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."

"God could have said magic words to make the nails fall off the cross, but He didn’t. That’s love."

What's Your Number??

I received an email about this 'number' thingy from my hubby this morning...
kinda cool i guess.
Anyway..It's up to the individual to believe it or not.
Read it up!!
(opsss!! i know it's in Malay language. I'll try to translate it in english later...)


Kalau anda dilahirkan pada 1Hb, 10Hb, 19Hb, 28Hb dalam mana-mana bulan, anda adalah no.1

Kalau anda dilahirkan pada 2Hb, 11Hb, 20Hb, 29Hb dalam mana-mana bulan, anda adalah no.2

Kalau anda dilahirkan pada 3Hb, 12Hb, 21Hb, 30Hb dalam mana-mana bulan, anda adalah no.3

Kalau anda dilahirkan pada 4Hb, 13Hb, 22Hb, 31Hb dalam mana-mana bulan, anda adalah no.4

Kalau anda dilahirkan pada 5Hb, 14Hb, 23Hb dalam mana-mana bulan, anda adalah no.5

Kalau anda dilahirkan pada 6Hb, 15Hb, 24Hb dalam mana-mana bulan, anda adalah no.6

Kalau anda dilahirkan pada 7Hb, 16Hb, 25Hb dalam mana-mana bulan, anda adalah no.7

Kalau anda dilahirkan pada 8Hb, 17Hb, 26Hb dalam mana-mana bulan, anda adalah no.8

Kalau anda dilahirkan pada 9Hb, 18Hb, 27Hb dalam mana-mana bulan, anda adalah no.9

Anda sangat cerdik, jujur, lucu, degil, rajin, terus-terang, cemburu dalam asas pertandingan, baik hati, peramah dan autoriti. Anda ingin mendahului dalam apa jua keadaan. Anda seorang yang berdikari, berkeyakinan dan tidak pernah berada di bawah pimpinan orang lain. Anda akan bercinta dalam usia yang muda tapi akan berkahwin pada usia yang matang. Anda tidak suka akan orang yang bertentangan pendapat dengan anda. Malah anda juga menyimpan dendam dengan orang yang bersalah dengan anda. Anda seorang yang kuat belanja. Pada masa hadapan anda adalah professional dalam kerjaya yang anda ceburi. Namun terdapat juga orang yang kecil hati dengan pencapaian anda. Anda mempunyai keluarga yang bahagia. Pasangan ideal anda adalah no4, 6, 8.

Tak kira apa pun, anda akan disukai oleh semua orang kerana anda berperanankan Bulan dan semua orang suka akan bulan. Em…bagus! Anda suka bermimpi siang Anda kurang berkeyakinan terhadap diri sendiri. Jadi and perlu membuat perubahan ke atas hidup anda. Anda adalah seorang yang sukar diramal kerana anda membuat perubahan berdasarkan masa dan keadaan. Anda juga seorang yang mementingkan diri sendiri tetapi and mempunyai bakat dalam muzikal, seni dan komunikasi lisan. Sikap anda seperti bulan yang datang keredupan dan pudar jadi semua orang boleh mengetahui perubahan anda. Anda boleh menjadi Mahatma Gandhi yang kedua kerana cinta akan keamanan. Anda juga seorang yang bertanggungjawab dalam keluarga. Pasangan ideal anda adalah no.2, 5, 9.

Anda adalah seorang yang berhati keras, pentingkan diri sendiri, kuat agama dan suka untuk mempertingkatkan kehidupan sendiri. Anda mempunyai masalah keluarga dan anda dapat mengharungi dengan kesabaran anda. Anda sangat pandai bercakap, wajah yang cantik, jadi ke mana saja anda pergi anda akan dapat apa yang anda inginkan. Daripada hari lahir anda, anda perlu berkerja keras untuk berjaya. Anda juga seorang yang menghormati orang yang lebih tua daripada anda. Bukannya senang nak menjalinkan hubungan sama ada percintaan, kekeluargaan atau persahabatan. Sekiranya anda suka akan sikap seseorang itu, maka hubungan itu akan berpanjangan. Anda suka akan kebebasan, pencipta di mana ada anda akan membawa harapan, kegembiraan dan keceriaan ke dunia ini. Pasangan ideal anda adalah no.6, 9.

Anda adalah seorang yang amat degil dan rajin. Mungkin anda akan menjauhkan orang lain daripada anda kerana kata-kata anda. Anda seorang yang bertimbang rasa akan masalah orang lain. Anda berbakat dalam penyelidikan dan seni. Anda akan membantu ahli keluarga atau kawan-kawan yang menghadapi masalah tanpa berfikir panjang. Anda kena berhati-hati dengan orang sekeliling anda kerana mereka mungkin akan mempergunakan anda. Kawan-kawan anda akan menghabiskan masa dan wang ringgit anda dan selepas itu menjauhi daripada anda apabila anda dah tak ada nilai buat mereka lagi. Walau bagaimanapun anda tetap seorang yang sabar dan tegas. Pasangan ideal anda adalah no.1, 8.

Anda sangat popular dalam komuniti. Anda boleh menyelesaikan sesuatu perkara hanya secara lisan. Anda mempunyai akal fikiran dalam menjalani perniagaan. Namun anda terlalu terburu-buru. Anda adalah seorang yang humor di kalangan kawan-kawan dan ahli keluarga. Kawan-kawan dan ahli keluarga anda juga akan minta bantuan anda apabila mereka memerlukan bantuan. Anda bukan seorang yang setia dalam hubungan percintaan. Anda suka perubahan dan kebebasan. Anda mempunyai ciri-ciri seorang pengembara dan ahli silap mata. Anda mempelajari hidup melalui pengalaman. Pasangan ideal anda adalah no.1 , 2, 9.

Anda dilahirkan untuk menikmati hidup ini. Anda tidak pedulikan apa-apa perkara dan hanya ingin berseronok dalam hidup anda saja. Anda sangat pandai dalam pelajaran dan pengurusan perniagaan. Anda seorang genius, baik hati (tapi hanya orang yang beranggapan anda orang baik), mempunyai paras rupa yang cantik atau kacak. Semua benda yang baik akan datang pada anda. Anda mengambil berat ke atas ahli keluarga dan kawan-kawan anda. Pada pandangan mereka, anda adalah seorang yang murah hati, peramah, adil saksama dan mempunyai penilaian yang tajam. Pasangan ideal anda adalah no.1, 3, 9.

Anda mempunyai daya tarikan kepada sesiapa saja. Anda adalah seorang yang realistik, yakin, gembira dan merupakan seorang yang genius dalam bidang pendidikan, muzik, seni dan nyanyian. Anda mempunyai masalah sikap iaitu panas baran. Namun demikian, anda banyak melakukan pengorbanan untuk keluarga. Anda meletakkan keluarga di tempat yang amat tinggi sekali sehingga kadang-kadang mengabaikan kebahagian diri sendiri. Anda telah dilahirkan untuk memberi sumbangan kepada dunia ini. Jadi anda seorang yang bagus dan seorang yang amat gembira. Pasangan ideal anda adalah no.2.

Anda mempunyai personaliti yang sangat kuat jadi tak ada orang yang memahami anda. Kepakaran anda hanyalah menuding jari pada sesuatu benda. Anda juga mengalami pelbagai dugaan dalam hidup. Semua masalah ini telah menjadikan anda lebih kuat dan tabah. Anda memperjuangkan keadilan. Kebanyakan masa anda telah dihabiskan bersama-sama dengan kawan-kawan. Anda seorang yang disiplin dalam hidup, tidak putus asa dan berani. Faktor-faktor ini telah membawa anda ke puncak kejayaan. Anda juga adalah seorang ahli pasukan, keluarga dan pejuang yang sangat bagus. Pasangan ideal anda adalah no.1, 4.

Anda adalah seorang yang sangat tabah dari segi fizikal dan juga mental. Anda mempunyai penilaian yang sangat tajam. Anda juga adalah seorang yang sangat dihormati dalam komuniti. Anda adalah orang yang boleh menerima cabaran dan berjaya dalam apa jua yang anda buat. Pada usia yang muda anda selalu bertentangan dengan ibu bapa anda. Tapi apabila usia anda telah semakin meningkat anda adalah seorang anak yang taat dan hormati mereka. Anda sesuai menceburi bigan kejuruteraan atau perbankan kerana orang lain percaya dan yakin akan anda. Anda merupakan model teladan kepada orang lain. Pasangan ideal anda adalah no. 3, 5, 6

Monday, February 2, 2009

It's Been Ages

Whoa...It's been ages I've been away from my dear blog.
The last post was 8th November 2008. And now it's already 4th Feb 2009...oh my!!

It's almost midnite now. And I'm sitting alone on my bed. There's so much stories that I wanted to let it out here, but can't figure out where to start.

In within this few months I've been away, there's soooo many things happening in my life.
HECTIC is the best words describe what have I been going thru these days.
I hardly remember myself when was the last time I had my movie, up till last nite. The 'Iron man' was too tempting to watch tho...hehe. I can't even remember my ASTRO channels. I can't even recall how warm was my sofa felt. Damn!!! I've been missing in my own world.

Sadly, I don't even have time to think wut my goals are for this new bright year. Apart of the economic is giving a bad sign, my mind is still all messed up with lotsa work loadssssss.

Oh my...I dun wanna start my 2009 with so many regrets in me.
These days I've been consindering alot of taking a good vacation. Altho, hubby keep mentioning to me of getting a breakaway somewhere these days but I doubt my mind can go with peace.
Unless, if I'm able finish all jobs on time b4 I left.

So far, as a summary tat I may conclude since my last post..
I had my mom's birthday on last 11th Nov 2008, Amylea's (my beautiful niece) birthday last december, a few photo shoots for my clients, lots of editting, lots of works these couple of months, weddings and engagements photoshoot again on this Jan 2009 and bla bla bla bla....
till up to last weekend I went to Frazer Hill for a 'so-called' take a mind off with hubby together with my newly wed client (hahaha..still a job of mine related,whew!!)

Oya, I've just received a phone call from my closest cousin (Ira). She called me from the hospital, waiting for her 'delivery' moment. Suddenly my eyes felt warm...God will bless her with a very beautiful child in within these few hours. My childhood with her is flashing in my mind right now. I can feel how mixed feeling she's having rite now after listening to her voice. Especially by having her 1st child. I pray the best for her. I'm very greatful indeed. Surely, I'll pay her a visit after work tomorrow. =)

Btw, about the Frazer Hill Trip here are some photos that I may share for now...
(nothing much's just something that able to catch my eyes at tat moment)
Btw, there's some photos below are captured by hubby too..

Opss!! it's 4 mins to 1am now. I'd better get myself to sleep now.
Cya again dear blog!!

nite nite